#i'm getting the feeling i might be scaring folks away haha

[harundraws]

may i offer a YJ doodle dump in these trying times?

[prince-liest]

Hi! About your staticradio series (which is PHENOMENAL omg😍) - I know you said Vox is kinda falling in love while Al will remain aro. Which is awesome, we love to see rep! But I'm wondering if they will end up as QPPs (who fuck, lol)? Or it'll strictly be FWBs? Gah it's diffifult to describe it bc labels are so subjective and often too limiting, but I guess what I'm asking is whether they'll have an emotional relationship too, however it might look with their orientations? Will Al in particular have any soft feels for Vox & be fond of their unique bond? Even if Vox is in love with him when Al himself isn't? (I worry that would scare Al away😭) An intimate emotional closeness regardless of the specifics?

Thank you so much!! I've been enjoying writing it enormously so it always brings me a lot of joy that other folks are, too. >:D Just a heads up, this post has turned a little long because it got me talking about Alastor and the way he handles his feelings vs his ego in general.

First: I think the answer to this depends fully on how you personally define a queerplatonic partnership! I don't think Alastor would ever go for, like, a committed relationship with Vox in any form, but I also don't think that this would necessarily be a sad state of affairs for Vox, who I obviously write as poly as fuck with his toxic yaoi husband. Maybe it's because I'm aro af, but I feel like from Vox's end, "Yeah, I get to fuck around with the guy I'm obsessed with and he's not, like, nice, but I think I Stockholmed him into giving a shit about me!" is not actually a state of affairs he'd dislike! Especially since it's got that shiny "I'm special!" vibe in the sense that Nobody Else Gets To Get This Far With Alastor.

As for Alastor's side of things...

I think that so much of their dynamic dynamic isn't just set by Alastor being aroace, it's also set by him being a fucking sadist and a narcissist, HAHA. Like, he is very much in the middle of developing feelings about Vox, which (if my favorite interpretation of his little breakdown in the finale is correct) is also where his character arc is heading with regards to the hotel crew in canon, too, but his friendship-and-trust arc is slowburn as all hell and not entirely linear.

Part of the fun in writing Alastor is the process of qualifying all of his feelings with his sense of superiority in a way that is protective of his ego. He is freely and openly fond of people when that fondness doesn't expose any kind of emotional vulnerability in him. For example: He feels a condescending but genuine fondness for Niffty and Mimzy, whom he protects, and that's safe! He's quirky friends with Rosy, who is a benevolent semi-equal who uplifts his ego, and that's safe! He... may or may not have started caring enough about the hotel crew to have put himself at risk for them, and that is not only dangerous to his physical well-being but also massively humiliating, which is arguably worse to someone like Alastor.

He has SO many ego-prioritizing defense mechanisms and it's fun for me to pay attention to because I, too, am someone whose cardinal sin is probably pride. Anything is permissible only as long as it can be framed in a way that doesn't insult his ego.

Anyway, the point is: I don't think "soft feels and fondness for their unique bond" is on the list of ways that Alastor is able to find himself feeling about someone like Vox. The whole reason their whole situation in 666: Live on Air! started is thanks to Alastor's awareness and amusement at how obsessed Vox is with him. He sees himself as above Vox, and knowing that Vox is more emotionally invested than he is is part of the appeal. It's just gone from (derogatory) to (fond). (Which is, guess what? Safe!)

(It also means realizing that Vox is falling madly in love or whatever just nets a reaction somewhere in the region of, "Wait, is that significantly different from what you were already doing?", lol, because the only thing that's changed is the flavor of feeling, not the level of exposed emotional underbelly that he thinks Vox is showing him.)

TL;DR: He likes Vox like a cat likes a favorite mouse.

[atthebell-moved]

actually wait I wanna talk about something I've noticed that I was literally just talking about and I think has to do with like. why people don't draw female CCs with their actual features. If I'm not making any sense just ignore me

So boobs and curves have been sexualized to hell and back despite the fact that they're not sexual features of a person, and this has led to the idea that boobs and curves are sexual.

Which leads people to think that drawing these features is sexualization, regardless of how much a streamer might actually just look like that. (not to jump away from women and misogyny, but it's why you see people in this fandom throwing a fit whenever a male character is drawn with these features, because they see them as inherently sexual)

So what you end up with is a bunch of people who try to make female and female presenting streamers as curveless and boobless as possible, which often makes them look just really skinny and flat and not like themselves at all.

Not to say that a large part of it doesn't come from people refusing to draw streamers with their actual body types in the first place, but I'd argue that this is a part of it and they work together to make it worse.

areus you are 1000% correct on this. people are so scared to "sexualize" anyone that they refuse to draw women accurately, even though its not sexualizing to show that niki has boobs. drawing her to look like a skinny eighteen year old boy is nuts. its weird and in an industry where female streamers are already pressured to be thin and follow conventional beauty standards its honestly awful.

drawing grian or scar or wilbur with boobs is not sexualizing them. its going oh wouldnt it be interesting or funny if this guy who doesnt have boobs had boobs. isnt gender so weird and funny and arbitrary. now i do get annoyed with how often people are willing to draw mcyt dudes in dresses or with tits but have never drawn a woman in their life-- that does get to me. okay, you can draw boobs. why dont you draw them on someone who actually has them irl? i genuinely dont have an issue with the scitties stuff it just annoys me that people in this fandom would rather draw a guy in a dress bc haha* than draw a woman at all. drawing male characters with boobs is great though. imo its akin to drag in a weird way but i dont want to get into the dynamics of drag and gender parody rn since that's not the point of this ask. regardless its cool and people should do it if they want but they should also draw women.

again, im not calling anyone out or saying this is across the board the case, just saying it can be a trend in fandoms. like all of this, im not saying anyone is doing this on purpose. misogyny is pervasive and systemic, just like most forms of oppression. thats why my biggest advice is to just look at your own behavior when you can and try to notice trends.

anyway aside from that element of things i dont have anything to add, your insights are very welcome! body image is a huge issue in media and i think attempts to "desexualize" female streamers end up being incredibly harmful.

*the "man in a dress" concept, btw, can be incredibly harmful and is often a transmisogynistic stereotype. im not saying it is here but i would encourage folks to think hard about when that joke is just about being horny over some guy's thighs and when its about how comedic it is that person who looks like, for example, scar (who has what society deems as "masculine" characteristics) is wearing a dress. again, i dont think this is the case for much of this fandom as most of you just seem to like drawing dudes in dresses bc its fun, which is great, but watch out for this stereotype in other forms of media. if you want more info on this please feel free to ask.

[handmeyourheart]

Hello! I like your work and I was wondering if you could do a one-shot idea for either Macaque or MK with a gender-neutral reader. The prompt idea is that the reader has a scar on their arm somewhere and the other person accidentally grabs on that part of the arm, causing the reader to shove them away and look startled/scared for a moment. But after a second they calm down and acts that it never happened and if asked by them they get unnaturally cold towards them and continue to say it didn't happen. (Sorry if the format is confusing/awkward I'm not used to typing online)

Imagines

Pairing: Six-eared Macaque and Romantic/Platonic Reader. MK and Romantic/Platonic Reader. (Separate).

Summary: Reader has unresolved trauma and the boys have questions.

Warnings: Maybe a bit ooc for Macaque, but otherwise no spoilers this time. I changed it from a Oneshot to Imagines because I was compelled to do both like you asked, so I apologise if it’s not what you hoped for but you’re free to request more!!

Notes: I really love angst— yes, feed me, indulge me in my bad habits. Gender neutral reader. It’s mainly platonic but you can infer romantic feelings if you’d like!! Non-specific. Haha Macaque's one doesn’t end the happiest, but it’s okay. Also I’m sorry in advance baha.

Words: 1.2k for Macaque, unfinished MK, there’s an explanation I swear.

Also gentle reminder my requests are open! Feel free to leave an ask!! It would be greatly appreciated. See my pinned post for more details!!

Macaque / Liu’er Mihou!

You and Macaque are something along the lines of partners, he’s one of your only friends and you’re one of the very small few he tolerates beyond his average scale. Work colleagues at least and very close at best, you help him out with his work because unlike some people you’re remarkably capable in your line of business, and he admires your achievements— there’s no mess he could leave behind that you can’t clean up. You’re something of an assistant to him, helping him organise his deals and collect his due when necessary, but on occasion you might lend an experienced hand in aid as an accomplice, your abilities are nothing to scoff at, after all, how else could you call yourself a friend of the six-eared simian if you went at least up to his own standard. Though you weren’t as competent as Macaque himself, you can hold your ground if need be, at least, which makes you suitable if not ideal for him to work with.

Though a lot of your background story is shrouded in mystery, he doesn’t really know what your deal is, but since you don’t ask him personal questions about his dramatic past, he respects you in kind and doesn’t ask anything beyond his bounds, he knows where you limit him. All he does know is that you’ve been in the industry for much longer than he has, whether it’s a cause for concern is yet unknown to him, but it’s not strange for folks like yourself and him to wind up in this kind of work. It had just simply been by matter of circumstance that you’d come to work together, whatever made it easier to earn more, you’d suppose.

Tonight however despite the careful, intricate planning considered beforehand, the job had been a total bust thanks to a crude but admittedly unintentional mistake you had made. You’d managed to escape outside through the crossfire and under the cloak of night, fleeing without a trace, they weren’t able to follow after you—

but Macaque would not be pleased with these results especially since your slip up meant he had to scuffle with the clientele himself because of it. You weren’t sure what impression to expect when you next regrouped, but you tried to keep your hopes low and pleaded with whatever god of luck may be lurking to pity you some and alleviate his anger, if only partially.

Fortunately enough though you were just glad you both came out unscathed by the ordeal, but tensions were high between you and your partner over it. With your back to the wall and head hanging loosely between your knees from where you sat positioned on the floor, you assessed any damage that might’ve occurred without your potential awareness, ignoring the sharp gaze of the monkey who's back turned to you, dismissing his mood as you surveyed your legs in concern.

“What was that?” He spoke, seeing how you weren’t going to indulge him with an answer to the night's prior events. With his back still facing you in an arrogant disposition that teased at his agitation, you didn’t really feel the most inclined to humour him, unwilling to put up with his attitude. In response to your silence he sends a dreaded, sharp glare toward you and you relent, shoulders falling in defeat. Maybe you could be an easy foe, but it’s been a long night, plus it’s Macaque. It's fine, be quiet.

“What was what?” You feign ignorance, swallowing dryly as his stare remains cold, exhaling through your nostrils forcefully in a strained sigh. “It was an accident, alright? Don’t get your tail in a twist, it wasn’t something we anticipated.” You dismiss, rising to your feet at his disapproval. It was a truly silly mistake, your cover was blown and the whole espionage went up in smoke and sirens, but it was fine, he just had to realise that. You just wished he’d suck it up for once, he’d made mistakes before too, maybe not as disastrous as today but it wasn’t fair for him to lash out on you for one failure when your track record with him was as solid as it is. “Are you alright, though? I would’ve stayed to help but I thought it would’ve only inconvenienced you further, I didn't want to anger you more by burdening you with my presence during a large scale fight like that.” You hesitantly approached him at that, the aftermath hadn’t been the prettiest and he had to get quite involved in order to escape the whole ordeal, so your concern did stem from a place of genuinity.

In return for your concern he shoots you a look, grabbing the arm that reached for him with a stern and increasingly tight grip. “Do you know how much money we lost—“

He was quickly cut off by your cry of distress, yelping at the sudden force against a very large, very personal scar that resided up the length of your inner arm. It was something mostly hidden from view, hanging at your sides with your arms in resting and wearing long sleeves can make the antique wound seem oh so unnoticeable. But the grief it had caused you over many years was triumphant and the potent memory of how it was received is still fresh in your mind, tender and as pulsating as the scar under his vice hold. You quickly lashed at him until you were freed, cowering back a few steps and wincing at the ripe sensation. It had never healed, and you assumed it never would no matter the amount of remedies you tried. Macaque had attempted to release his hold earlier upon your initial reaction, it was unlike you to flinch if at all and now you’d instinctively retreated away from him, a sullen but sure gaze of hurt in your eyes that shocked him.

You’d always been one to hold yourself to a high regard, you were admirable and courageous, and he had been sure to withhold his strength to a lesser extent— it definitely was not him that’d hurt you, right?

Seeing his surprise, you took a brief moment to recollect your composure, gently returning your arm to rest once more idly by your side with a disgruntled sigh. He seemed to sit in a silent anticipation, as if expectantly waiting for an explanation out of you, but you’d be damned if he were ever to receive one after he’d snapped at you, returning back with a smooth, even tone. “Whatever we lost I can compensate again later, even if it means taking on some of my own jobs to reimburse you for your damages if it’s just so important to you.” You’d note, dusting yourself off and brushing past him like the entire altercation hadn’t happened at all. He seemed rather perturbed, following your figure closely before he tugged on the fabric of your top to halt your exit.

“What was that?” He repeated, as if only an echo of the former anger when he’d asked the question earlier.

“What was what?” You’d parrot, forming a thin line with your mouth and turning away, leaving the monkey to welt in a small pool of guilt. He’d have to apologise, even if he was a little confused by the situation.

MK / Qi Xiaotan!

You’d been a rather long time friend of the newly named Monkie Kid, though you couldn’t hold a candle to the extensive history of he and Mei, but you’d met the two some time after they’d become besties and you were pretty much, without so much as a word of complaint, adopted into the now trio of hero hooligans. A mostly unwilling, low key thrilled to be included participant of their many shenanigans and various escapades. Of course you and Mei were close as could be, but if you had to understand a scale of reference you’d consider yourself maybe closer to MK, you’re often the one who convinces him to console in you when he needs someone to talk to and you’re willing to hear him out until the end.

Nobody really knew where you came from, though. One day you’d just up and appeared and you were great! So no questions were really ever asked, especially when there wasn’t a need to, they’d known you long enough even before MK had been crowned the official successor of the monkey king, you weren’t a suspicious person.

OK SO UM SORRY FOR THE SUDDEN CUT OFF LMAO I have a notice haha…

Well anyways I apologise for the cut off, I will update this when I can when I finish this but well, my house flooded a little while ago and it caused mold to grow under the floorboards so we’ve had to fix the plumbing and then organise for the floors to be stripped and replaced so the mold can be dealt with yikes, so I’ve been struggling with writing lol, but the show must go on so I’m posting this preemptively.

I hope this doesn’t sadden you too much, I will still be working on this and I won’t move on to another request until it’s done but please be patient with me. I posted pretty consecutively but my schedule will probably fall into a weekly/biweekly routine for updates at best!! Not sure when I’ll get it finished, but check back regularly and you’ll know. Love YALL, stay safe, don’t get your house flooded! xx

[dreamties]

Slashers W/ an S/O Who Writes Love Poems

A/n- Requested by @slashert4t , I hope you like how this came out! Reader is gender neutral <33

T/W: the Billy & Stu one is kinda angsty so like. watch out lol and...Norman's. Loves I'm so sorry haha

Characters: Daniel Robitaille (Candyman), Norman Bates, The Lost Boys, JD, Billy Loomis & Stu Macher, Helen Lyle

Taglist: @strawberry-moonpies —> send in an ask if you’d like to be added! :)

Candyman (Daniel Robitaille)

Daniel??? Who’s lips speak nothing but sweet nectar? Who’s so soft spoken and wise and somehow holds you in his mind above all else? That Daniel??

part of what attracted him to you in the first place, was how you could see him and your first instinct not be scared and disturbed. Worried and careful, but not afraid that you’d come to harm. You saw him as a person first (or- ghost?), as himself, as Daniel Robitaille— and then as the legend.

it’s like falling in love with you all over again!

he feels. . .seen. So important in your eyes.

ohmygod wait, using some the lines to write them in blood against the walls of his victims? Like ughhhh that would be so fucked and morbid out of context (but it would be weirdly sweet if you find out through the news and find. Oh. That’s your writing. Daniel’s been thinking about you, huh?)

Norman Bates

I think I talked about this for the long distance HCs I did but uhh.

Norman abso-freaking-lutely writes you letters!

so maybe it started as a tradition, of giving letters to each other. Long distance or not. Norman finds it so soothing. It’s much easier to write all his feelings down than speak it aloud— you must feel a little like that too, right? He can’t be alone in that feeling :(

you surprise him one day, with the prettiest words dedicated to only him. He’s so happy holy cow :’( he’s gonna tear up a bit, but he’s so bashful about it. You might not even notice that he’s crying, if it weren’t for how long you were together; you know his tells now.

Mother may attempt to “protect” him and not let him read the letters. Kind of like, the part of him that doesn’t think he deserves this nice thing or thinks it too good to be true.

he’ll need some reassurances but hey, if you’re able to print your heart on the page for him, I think you can muster some courage to comfort him when he needs it <3

(im so sorry for the angst babes)

The Lost Boys

all the boys have pretty similar feelings??? but MUCH different reactions.

David has a secret soft spot and has written both men and women, in his past, love letters. Not quite poems...but not too far off from what you're doing....right??? And he's also received many a poem and letter from previous (human) lovers.

he keeps his favorites tucked away on the inside of his jacket

I feel like Dwayne has dabbled a bit in it.

Paul is a fucking goof but I promise...somewhere around his brain...hidden beneath some layers maybe?? he can be serious about things. He'll kiss you and tell you that he loves you. And if the poem was just for him, he'll be a little obnoxious and show it off to the rest of the lost boys. It only really gets under David's skin.

Marko!! my dear!! my chaotic, small energy creature <33

Recreating portions of the poem in embroidery or paint on patches of his own, to add to his jacket.

some of the boys stick them into the section of the cave they sleep, or the common area, as a sort of decoration.

JD

just about dies when you first show him one of the pieces

his abandonment issues are strong; but his obsession with you is stronger lmao

He's one of the few folks who will really truly appreciate what you've done. He likes reading, it's one of his tamer pastimes.

he'd like to put these up with some of the greats; the masters. No words but yours know how to tap into him, worm through his head, work it's way as it breaks him apart with gentle, cautious hands.

He's in pieces, dear.

Nothing shows such devotion like this. He'd do anything for you (yes, somehow even more than he already would and wanted to)

He's put back together, healing, as he writes in the margins of a book he'd borrowed from you. He sneaks into your room one night, and slips it into place on your bedside. For you. For you to read when you're alone. To read and find a way to let him know you loved it (you loved HIM more importantly), without fully acknowledging the light BnE.

Billy Loomis & Stu Macher

oh- these boys do Not know how to act!

You're writing them??? notes? in??? in your writing???? for THEM???

utterly flabbergasted.

Stu can and WILL brag about this to his friends lol

Billy is far less openly endearing and appreciative about it than Stu is. he thinks it's so sweet, really. but he has no idea how to properly tell you how much it REALLY means without totally baring his soul to you.

. . .it almost feels like you've already seen him inside out though, with the way you've poured your love onto the page.

it's almost scary how well you know him. . .

expect him to be a little defensive and weird about it when you first show him any of the writings.

it's that whole "I'm so scared of being known" (+ so intimately at that). this coping mechanism from his trauma acts up and makes him pull away.

whether or not you're hesitant to show him again. if you keep trying to connect with him or whatever .

I think his rock, Stu, is ultimately what gets him to really open up. to let himself love you and know you, and vice versa. he's done it once with his boyfriend, he can do it again.

ALSO all of this might change depending on what point in their lives you begin writing and sharing these with them (and I suppose also how long you've been together...but I feel like poems aren't something most do early on in relationships..?)

Billy is more reclusive if it's in high school, in college it's not too different...but he's able to face his feelings just a teeny bit easier <3

Helen Lyle

Helen actually writes you little notes and stuff, but it's usually meant to tease you. Sometimes they're cute and heartfelt, but it's not quite her thing, y'know?

When she starts receiving these poems from you though? Oh my, she is in love. She is really in love.

She half expects the paper to read like something she would've wrote for you. Something silly and dirty and to be read only once or twice, when accidentally found in between the text book pages.

She's so surprised to see it's something so sweet.

The poems really help the two of you bond and show affection towards each other! Especially if you're in a queer relationship, and may need to have things on the down low.

If people see Helen smiling down at her notes, let them think what they want- but they'll never know who it's from or how much it means. It's your special secret between each other <3

[lovinga3characters]

So, I'm very short. How about some headcannons or texts with tall folks from A3 like Sakyo, Banri, Juza, Omi, Tasuku, ad Azuma (you can pick and choose if this is too many) with a tiny s/o of, like, 5'0". 😂

Waddup, shortie~! LOL, I would love to do some SMALL headcanons, it wouldn’t be a TALL order at all! 😈 (Note: some of these boys are teasing devils~)

Sakyo 💴 (178 cm/5’8 ft)

“Hm? Oh, sorry, I didn’t see you. Must’ve missed the movements from all the way up here.” 😌

Don’t be surprised that he teases, Sakyo calls you a little brat for a very good reason

He’ll sigh and roll his eyes when you ask for help getting something from up high but he’s actually happy that you’re relying on him

Ruffles your hair a lot, as if you’re a kid, to make you grumble and pout 😤

Sakyo will enjoy it when you lean against his side on the couch while watching a movie or working, he’s not that confident in his cuddling skills so it’s easier when you start things

Might try to scare you with a kabedon once and a while just a warning—

Banri 🍂 (183 cm/6’0 ft)

“Aww, how’s the weather down there? Are your tiny legs tired from tryin’ to keep up with me? Haha!” 😁

THIS PIECE OF SHIT WILL PICK ON YOU MERCILESSLY- seriously, Banri will always say the most cliché jokes at your expense

This man most definitely uses the top of your head as an elbow rest if he can

On a more serious note, he finds the idea of height differences satisfying, and he’s not gonna lie and say that the idea of you being the ‘short’ one isn’t cute af

Will absolutely destroy anyone that makes fun of you though, he’ll be damned if some fucker calls you weak 🤬

Pulls away from kisses on purpose so that way you’ll have to be on your tippy toes to reach

Juza 🍰 (185 cm/6’0 ft)

“... Do ya need me to reach anything? I don’t wanna let ya get hurt just cause I wasn’t payin’ attention to ya, I’d feel guilty.” 😓

A sweetie who wants to protect you no matter what, even if you’re fully capable!

Kind of likes it when you tug him down to your level in order to kiss him

Please wear Juza’s jacket, he’ll get really embarrassed but it makes him super giddy to see you in it 😊

He’s used to giving piggyback rides because of Muku and his younger brother so free feel to try it out!

Panics so hard when he can’t find you, it’s funny

Omi 🐺 (188 cm/6’1 ft)

“Baby, please, do not try and run off on your own, you’re going to injure yourself. I know you’re tough but that doesn’t mean you need to prove it.” 😣

Gentle giant x angry smol confirmed

But for real, he cares a lot about you, so he’ll give in to your whims most of the time, from piggyback rides to becoming a mock punching bag

YOU CAN LAY ON HIS CHEST SO GOOD AND COMFORTABLY 🥺

Pats the top of your head when you do something praiseworthy and leans down to kiss the very top of your head, smiling like the proud mama he is

Will die from cuteness when you wear his clothes that are too big on you

Tasuku ⚽️ (185 cm/6’0 ft)

“Oof- be careful. I nearly knocked you over, though it might be my bad after all, actually. I wasn’t looking and I know I’m sturdy, sorry.” 😶

Doesn’t have any particularly strong feelings over your height, though he might worry that you’re unable to keep up with him

Subtly considerate, like he puts cups close to the edge so you can grab them easier or moves other items on the lower shelves for you 🤗

Likes to pick you up, either as a workout or simply to take you somewhere with him

Cautiously hugs you, he’s awkward about it in the first place and Tasuku doesn’t want you to suffocate

Has probably used your shirt as a stretched out crop top on accident

Azuma 🥀 (178 cm/5’8 ft)

“We better hold hands so we don’t get lost, hm? It would be a shame if we got separated since there’s no way to spot you among this crowd, fufu~.” 😏

Another one that will tease you, but only if you’re not insecure about it or anything like that

Likes to feed you because, quote, “You’re like my own little pet.” Which either embarrasses you or irritates you

Makes you sit on his lap and wraps his arms around you to cuddle

Big spoon or little spoon? It doesn’t matter your height, Azuma will accept both!

Don’t expect any carrying though because he is WEAK 😅

[imnotusedtobeingloved]

Hello love!! Can I get a male ship of Marvel, GoT and Vikings?? 🙈

I’m a photographer and social activist from the North of Spain, very interested in politics and meeting new cultures. I wish to travel the world with my camera and use my photography as a way of opening people's eyes to other realities. I started writing as a way of expressing my feelings since I tend to keep them to myself and now my house is full of notebooks and diaries. My music taste is rock, folk and country as the main ones but I listen to literally any genre. I'm a very social person and I love my big family but it's really important for me to have time for myself too. I love train rides, nature, reading with a cup of tea warming my hands and art. I started studying music when I was eight and I've been in a bunch of bands as singer and guitarist. I love sitcoms and I laugh at almost everything. I'm a sucker for board games and I'm always the friend of the group who annoys the rest with new plans. When I'm older I'd like to live in the countryside on a big house with a lot of children and animals running around. I'm a libra, hufflepuff, enfp, with rock/grunge/hippie style, 5'4ft with light-brown hair and brown-hazel eyes. To my grandma dismay I have tattoos and my ears are full of ear rings. I consider myself as a passionate, goofy, sweet, positive and naive person. I have a lot of issues in the "dating" area haha it's really hard for me to find someone who I have romantic interest in (more than just physical attraction) and open up to them. I'm the kind of person who prefers to not be attached to anyone but then misses having someone to cuddle with. As I said I good at making friends but not at showing vulnerability and love scares me sometimes.

Hope it wasn't too much information😅😅

Sending lots of love, Rach💖

I SHIP YOU WITH...

BJORN IRONSIDE

Just like you, Bjorn is drawn to foreign lands. He's curious about other cultures and beliefs, which is probably how the two of you would meet. Completely unplanned and by chance. It was a coincidence, really, that the two of you would meet while exploring a country unknown to both of you, you'd say. But Bjorn would call it fate. The two of you quickly notice the many similarities between you and soon you would be making new plans together. What attracts him to you first, other than your looks, is your unique and creative view on the world around you. He could listen to your ideas and visions forever, only stopping you whenever he has a thought of how to make the experience even better. Another thing he admires is your love and loyality to your family. With his own joining in, the two of you might be in for some trouble though, as it gets bigger and bigger and bigger. But then again, that might not be so bad. The two of you are so often away on your travels, that it is pleasant to be home once in a while, even if it might gets chaotic with your relatives, his brothers and all his nephews and nieces running around. It is quite understandable that you might need some time for just you after that, even if he might be reluctant to let you go at first (mostly because he's nervous something might happen to you out of his sight). Nevertheless he enjoys quiet evenings with only the two of you a lot. Snuggled into some fur, with some hot drinks to warm you up, there is nowhere he would rather be.

I SHIP YOU WITH...

BUCKY BARNES

Bucky is the right fit for you. He would steal glimpses at you when you first meet, but he would be quite reluctant to approach you. It would definetely take a long time before the two of you reach the level to have truly deep conversations with each other, but as soon as the step is taken, he gets much more comfortable. Since he isn't bound by a company like Tony, or a Kingdom like T'Challa, Bucky can freely accompany you on your adventures. He'd be fascinated by your work and drive all around the planet with you, preferably with one of you behind the wheel of a car, blasting your favorite music from the radio. Bucky would also be intruiged if you tell him about your time as a singer and guitarist. He probably even ask you to teach him to play (or learn it behind your back to surprise you). Family-wise he would be overwhelmed by so many members at first, being awfully silent when meeting them, until you give him a nudge to put on a smile. But don't worry, he'll get better at that, even if it takes some time. In addition to that, Bucky would never judge you for needing some alone-time. In fact, he feels the same way and understands it perfectly if you prefer some time for yourself once in a while.

I SHIP YOU WITH...

DAARIO NAHARIS

The best man to keep you safe in this case is Daario Naharis, and you will meet him when you least expect it. Once you have captured his interest, he doesn't hesitate for long. In fact, he doesn't hesitate at all. Despite his obviously flirtatious behavior, Daario carries himself with confidence around you, impressing you most with his knowledge about other cultures and especially the many languages he speaks (which is quite helpful ngl). He is able to show you the wildest and most untouched secret places wherever you travel, where there is nobody but the two of you. He is charming and always calm (seriously he gets never nervous or anxious) allowing you to get comfortable around him quickly. In addition to that he can fit in very quickly and has a lot of stories to tell, which is a big plus when meeting your family (he is in their favor so quickly, it's ridiculous). When your desire for alone-time arises he would play to be offended at first, tough when you don't let him off the hook he might say something the lines of: "alone with me, right?" It might take him some time to get it, not gonna lie, but eventually he'd get it. Without a doubt, he is the one able to make you laugh the most. He shares your love for boardgames and does not mind a future with a hoard of children at all.

A/N: Hey Rach! Thank you so much for that lovely ask (there is no such thing as too much information here, haha). Can i just say you seem super sweet and i really hope you like who i've picked out for you! Thank you!

[oreomonsterhunter]

Tag Game

I was tagged by the absolute sweetheart @jhopetodream​ ❤️

Post your favourite/most recent photo of yourself

My most recent is the photoshoot I posted, so have an older one haha

Favorite personality trait of yours

I’m proud of my kindness.  It’s something I didn’t see in myself until I started actively choosing compassion.  And I know this is a deeper answer than this question warrants, but I wanted to remind everyone that kindness and happiness is a choice.  Choose the traits you want to see in yourself, and one day you’ll recognize them in the mirror 🌈

Favorite body part of yours

I quite like my smile (credit goes to my orthodontist)

Favorite aesthetic/style on yourself

Art mom meets cottage grandma?  With a sprinkle of writer academia?  Idk if I have an aesthetic, I’ve been living in pajamas for months

What are you most proud of?

My art, I’m like narcissus but with my paintings.  Catch me staring at my own oceans for half an hour on accident

A trait people say they like about you

Folks say I’m funny

A personality/physical trait that you used to be ashamed of but now appreciate

Glasses, oh boy.  I hated my glasses and thought I looked like a potato.  But now I think they’re hella cute, and I tend to love boys with glasses (@ 14 year old me, stop being a wimp and just get cuter frames)

Favorite color on you

Sultry reds...I see you burgundy 😘

Favorite clothing on you

TURTLENECKS

An aesthetic you want to try but are too scared to

I don’t really have a good answer to this question, but I have an answer.  I always wanted to be that punk kid, and I actually just bought Doc Martens after lusting after them for years.  I might not want to look like a Hot Topic model anymore, but I’m in love with combat boots with everything lol, I can’t remember the last time I left the house wearing anything else...

Things you like getting compliments on the most

Oh gosh, I'm the worst with compliments, I just want to run away.  But I love compliments on things I’ve made or done.  That way I can’t make excuses to myself

Lastly, do you love yourself?

I do.  I’m not always happy with myself, and I can always think of things I want to improve, but I do like myself.  It’s easier to say yes if you ask: would you be friends with yourself?  And I think the answer is usually yes

Tagging: you if you’ve read this far!  I’m the worst at tagging lol, so don’t feel obligated to do this if you don’t want to

[deadmomjokes]

Normal Anon Again 1: Your response was great, don't worry about a thing there. I just really feel stuck because Im still with my emotionally abusive family, and so I had to sneak to even see a doctor. I honestly felt like the doctor barely ever heard me at all, so even though she did prescribe an SSRI (not that she said what brand), I'm kind of scared to continue treatment with her. Because I made the notebook with a lot of care, she said I had OCD and did bring it up again later when I

had refuted it and tried to explain the notebook was just something I wanted to be well done for her. She didn't ever look at it either, so she based it off me buying little tabs and labeling them for ease of access and writing my name on the front I guess? I don't have a lot of money, as I don't have a job, and getting a job is the main reason I want to try medication... I basically have to move out by 2020 from my family, both by their desires and mine, so I'm on acrazy deadline to try to get my life together and I feel like I have no time to find someone new if I'm going to be looking to move away when all the apartments are renting. So it feels like if I want to try medication this is my one chance, but I don't feel like I can trust the doctor handling them. I don't know if I should just try to find a way to make my life work out for a couple months or give the medication a shot even though I don't trust the provider...I've got to worry about getting a job this month or being homeless too, which is why it feels so one or the other for my current situation. Thank you so much for all your feedback, sorry if this was a little messy being explained, I'm a bit frazzled yet, haha.

Oh man, I’m SO very sorry for everything you’re going through! You’re dealing with a ton, and this incident with Dr Garbage certainly didn’t help.

One thing that may be a possibility is going to a normal doctor, like a family medicine doc or general practitioner, and talking to them about your anxiety/depression problems. They can also prescribe psych medication, and it might be easier to pass off around your family and/or to find once you move, since a lot of offices partner or have networks that you can just transfer through. Anyone from a Nurse Practitioner to a PhD in general medicine can prescribe meds like an SSRI or even low-level mood stabilizers. (For my recently upped dosage, I went to a PA-C and they consulted with the folks at my obgyn, so I never even saw a psychiatrist. Tho I’m trying to get in with one anyway, but that’s way beside the point.)

I definitely understand you being unable to trust the current provider; she clearly didn’t hear you or take everything (anything?) into account. Anyone who comes to you from an emotionally abusive situation should warrant a ton of follow-up questions and in-depth probing. Even beyond that, just in general, taking stock of all the symptoms and reviewing any identified triggers is going to go a long way toward real diagnosis. Your notebook should have made her job a breeze, instead of her having to pick through your anecdotes of what happens when, she could just look at your notes! You were doing everything right; a therapist’s dream, honestly. I’ve been in therapy for years and I’m still not that good at keeping tabs on my own symptoms and patterns. I’m enraged on your behalf, because when someone comes to you for help you should reach back out to them, not be prescriptivist even if you’re dealing with prescriptions.

If medication is something you’ve been considering for a while, and feel like it might be a good fit for you, it may be worth trying the current prescription even though the current doctor is garbage, since SSRIs are usually the first try medications anyway. But that always comes with risks, because sometimes the first try doesn’t really work out for you or your specific situation. But SSRIs as a category are pretty safe, and are used for anxiety disorders (including panic disorder and generalized anxiety), ptsd, depression, and ocd as well. So chances are even if you found a psych who did their job well (aka not labeling you ocd for being prepared), they were going to land on an SSRI as a first try, too. That definitely doesn’t make it an easy decision, tho. That nagging fear may always be with you if you try it anyway despite not really trusting her diagnosis, and that could add a layer of complexity to deciding whether the medicine is right for you. Especially if you end up needing to switch medication or dosage, having a doctor you trust from the outset is going to be important.

I obviously cannot tell you what to do, nor do I want to, or even think I should if I could, because personal situations are just that--personal. I would only caution that if you’re already having difficulty getting or doing a job without medical assistance (ie medication), that trying it under serious stress for a few months may do more harm than good as far as worsening your difficulties, or causing new ones. However, sometimes we aren’t in the position to make the “best” decision for our health because living takes precedence; I’ve taken plenty of jobs that wrecked my mind and body and I kept them anyway because I absolutely had to. So I’m not going to get on a high horse because I know exactly how hard it is, and the difficult decisions you have to make in order to survive. I’m just so very sorry you are in that position to make such a decision.

If you do decide to try the medication anyway, some tips on kind of “going it alone” since you won’t be able to/won’t want to go back to the original doctor:

Start at a lower dose than the full final dosage. If she didn’t prescribe a “titration” schedule, starting at half dose for a week is a good place to begin.

Understand that things might get worse before they get better. You might have horrible mood swings, really bad depressive days, or bad anxiety spells before you start seeing the true effects. This isn’t indicative of whether the medicine is going to work eventually, but if it becomes too much for you to deal with, you should stop anyway.

Side effects may come and go. Just worth noting.

If possible, have someone close to you who knows that you’re starting this medicine. Obviously not a family member given your situation, but if you have a friend or anyone you do trust in your immediate vicinity, or even a friend you communicate with long-distance, make sure someone knows. That way you have someone to report in to and who can check up on you as you adjust.

Start by taking them with food, even if it doesn’t have a nausea warning. I’d suggest evening meal or soon thereafter, because SSRIs often cause drowsiness at first (great for helping with insomnia tho!).

You’re probably going to have a full month or two before it reaches its peak effect, since this is your first time trying them. You might see some relief right away, but full efficacy takes time as it builds up in your system. If you can tolerate the side effects (or don’t have any), and you’re able to deal with the mood swings or psychiatric effects, stick with it at least 6 weeks.

Listen to that “don’t drive or operate machinery” warning. First-time-medication drowsiness is a special breed that sneaks up on you and also makes you feel WEIRD.

You can also see about filling the prescription and then researching the name on the label before you decide whether or not to take it. Or, if you have an online account with the pharmacy, as with CVS, you can see the name of the drug there, or even call the pharmacy she sent it to and ask them what the name of it was (”for insurance purposes” or “because I forgot which one it was”) and then research it on sites like Mayo Clinic and rxlist.com (don’t do webmd). These websites include lists of what it’s approved to treat, so if you’re fairly certain you actually have anxiety/depression, look for that on the list. Just know that all websites are essentially required to remind you that an SSRI (really any antidepressant or mood stabilizer) could worsen any suicidal thoughts or behaviors, though this is mostly a risk for the 24 and under crowd with emphasis on teenagers. And it doesn’t happen to everyone.

Should you decide not to do the medicine right now because of the doctor who prescribed it, I applaud you for your bravery and strength in facing both your uncertain future and your mental/emotional difficulties without the assistance you feel you need. That’s a hard, hard thing to do, and I wish it wasn’t a choice you had to make.

I’ll be sending good vibes, thoughts, and prayers your way as you’re dealing with so many transitions and difficulties. I know cyber hugs are kind of a dated internetism, and may not mean much, but I give you all the cyber hugs my cyber arms can muster.

[fatgalfitness]

These are my someday bins.

Or I guess you could call them my past life bins. Because in a past life, I was small enough to fit into the clothes in these bins. In a past life, I weighed 60 pounds less than I do now. I could shop straight sizes. I could share clothes with friends. I could try things on without fear of getting stuck.

But see, even "skinny Theresa" didn't realize she was skinny Theresa. She still saw fat Theresa. Even though I had lost 130 pounds, the equivalent of a literal other grown woman, it was never enough. I was still too big. Too much.

I swore I would never be one of those statistics. You know the ones. 95% of people who lose significant weight gain it all back. And then some. It's shocking clickbait that is relatively true, though is more medical folk lore than hard data these days.

But then the panic disorder happened. And couple that with serious depression and crippling anxiety, and you get a 90 pound weight gain.

It broke me for a long time. Just a few years ago, I was under 200 pounds. I was lifting heavy things, running half marathons...hell, I did a sprint triathlon just for fun! I don't understand how it happened. How did I fall so far? How did I undo all of the hard work I had done?

Life's a funny thing. And by funny I mean hard as hell. How did it happen? It happened because suddenly, the energy I spent counting calories, cooking crazy healthy meals, and getting up at 5am to run and do CrossFit had to be spent on literally surviving.

When my panic disorder punched me in the face in the middle of grad school, I wanted to die. Not the haha kind, but the serious, I don't want to be on this Earth anymore kind. It's hard to admit that. But when all this hard work started to come undone, it was because I had to fight the part of my brain that wanted to kill me.

So I gave it up. The calorie counting, the 5am workouts, the being strong and together and that fitness chick. I got into therapy, and on medication. I spent my days just trying not to die, nevermind finding my new one rep max.

I spent years in that place. I finished grad school, I moved around, took different jobs, tried different gyms, but it followed me. My year in Louisville was one of the hardest of my life, for a multitude of reasons. It's the year that it all caught up. I had tried running from myself, tried finding quick fixes to keep the weight off. But the life I had to live in Louisville demanded every ounce of me. So I gave up. Again, I just had to survive. I got into therapy. I got off the medication. But I didn't have anything left for eating right. I didn't have the strength to fight the panic and get to the gym.

So I gained it back. Not all of it. But A LOT of it. Not all at once, but soon enough, I looked in the mirror and fat Theresa was back.

Next week marks a year since I moved to Indiana. It has been hard. I've been fighting those same demons since I got here. I still spend a lot of my energy on not dying.

But these days, I've found a little more space. Not a lot. I'm still not up at 5am, cooking the healthiest meals possible, tracking every last calorie, and drinking vodka sodas because they have the least calories. And I might never be back there. But that might not be a bad thing.

See, over the last six months, I've found space. Space to take care of myself again. Space to be that fitness chick again. Space to care about myself, above just trying not to die.

When I moved here, I had three past life bins. But slowly, that space I've found had let me do a few things. Like since I joined revolution fitness, I've lost around 25 pounds. Like finally donating/selling crap I'm never going to wear again, no matter what size I am. I've started eating healthy again. I've started doing active things that bring me joy. These feel like the smallest steps, but it's something. And I need to celebrate something, cause it beats the hell out of nothing.

So those are my someday bins. Maybe, someday, I'm going to lose these 60 pounds and be able to wear these clothes again. Maybe, someday, my brain and I are going to get on the same page and find the pure, sweet joy in a life lived lifting heavy things and eating weird ass healthy recipes I made up. I really hope that someday becomes a reality. But if it doesn't, I'm going to have to get okay with that too. Maybe my someday is only 30 pounds away. Maybe my someday is actually right now. The thought of that scares the hell out of me, because fat Theresa is not the version of Theresa that I want to spend the rest of my days with. BUT if fat Theresa lives a healthy, fulfilled life in this body? Okay.

Okay. That's okay. If these someday bins are not actually someday bins, but only past life bins, okay. I fought like hell through this entire journey. So no matter where we go from here, I have to be proud of past and present Theresa. She's been through hell. But she's still here.

[thewishingcap]

Hello. I noticed in the section titled "about fleets" that you are an INTJ. I am an INTP and I'm interested in what it's really like to be an INTJ, since of course the stereotypes aren't very accurate and the testing sites don't always get the full picture. Also, if you can, could you please list what you think the types would be for the characters you write about (besides Vaati)

Hi there anon!

(this… this turned out to be super long. I’m self absorbed apparently. aha)

Hmmm. What it’s like to be me huh. I’ve taken the test at least 5 times spread out across years and I’ve always only scored INTJ and agree with a lot of the descriptions haha. It uh… it kind of makes me sound like an ass. And I guess I am, and I’ve said that before, but I got comments telling me people didn’t believe me. But I’m an ass, and, well, more on that on the last few paragraphs but first: 

I think the part that struck me the most when reading the descriptions of INTJ was that we don’t think things are impossible. Nothing is impossible to achieve, though some things might be difficult. It’s not straight up idealism, just… I guess a sort of arrogant logical truth. If I can’t achieve something, it’s because I was lazy, or didn’t think the effort to get there is worth the result (like, if I really wanted to be an astronaut I could find some way to do it. Going to space sounds totally cool, but would I actually expend effort in it? Well, no, given that my baseline capability, my financial situation, and my mental health among other things… i wouldn’t be able to reasonably handle it. But possible? With enough time? Absolutely. Or I want to be a pro basketball player even though I don’t have the height for it? Will it be hard to succeed? Well hells yeah I’m starting with a disadvantage that I have no control over that other people don’t have to deal with. But impossible? Not if I try hard enough and take advantage of every advantage I could possibly find). 

… not saying people should agree with me on the above, but that’s just my approach to life in general and served me well so far. 

I guess the most important idea to me is that, if I’m not doing something, it’s not because of some outside forces that I wasn’t able to do it. It’s because I actively chose not to do it. It brings the responsibility of both my successes and failures onto me, alone, and even if it sucks sometimes I like the concept. 

And telling me I can’t do something is absolutely the way to get me to think of a way to do that very thing. 

I like rules. I like logic. I don’t like making situational rules that have no basis of fairness. I enjoy seemingly illogical contradictions that still, on some level, follow some kind of rule (even random-seeming characters that I write still have their own personal rules that make sense to them). I also like situations with loopholes that aren’t explicitly covered in the rules (kind of going back to point 1… sometimes solutions are there if you’re creative enough or a dick enough to find them. Does it seem fair? Not always. Is it fair? Absolutely, according to the rules, and I expect the rest to adhere to the same kind of dickery because it’s equally available to all, not just myself). 

Also I don’t do social. At least, I only do it on my own terms. Invite me to a party I hadn’t planned, and I’ll probably bail. I almost always have some kind of schedule on when I’m doing what, and for how long, and I tend to plan this days or even weeks in advance (and because these don’t include social hangouts, usually, unless I was the one to plan it, accepting these invitations tend to give me more stress than anything). Another thing I agree with the profiling: I’m unapologetically blunt, to both strangers and friends alike, if they do something I’m not fly with. People might get butthurt but they know where I stand.

One thing I disagree with on most of the descriptions from INTJ tests is that they often say INTJs ‘think carefully before they speak,’ or ‘are intelligent,’ or ‘present carefully constructed thought out answers to questions.’ I don’t see myself as any of these things. I usually say the first dum thing that comes to my head. 

Last… I’m highly critical, of myself and, I hate to say it, of others. Most folks on tumblr see my self-critical side, since I often lament about stuff I could have done better and my uh… cringe… regarding the stories I wrote that I once thought was passable. I can’t honestly let myself say “I love what I did, it’s perfect and great,” because I can always think of something I could have done better? But I don’t say this in any negative way, just… recognizing it as truth by logic, and self reflection so I can do even better the next time. 

I adhere to others’ works with the same critical eye, which tends to bite me in the butt. Usually if no one personally asks me for help on improvement, I’ll leave it alone. They’re having fun and having a good time, I won’t ruin that: I know my own self-critique is always on High Mode that’s probably not reasonable and maybe a little too harsh, and even if I welcome that myself not everyone does. All of what I said so far, above, I only hold myself to unless…

If they ask for help…? If they lament that they want their situation to change? That’s when I’ll bring that criticism mode on high, what I have set for myself. And… sometimes people are shocked my critique went from 0 to 100 in under 2 seconds. Case in point, had a student who wrote really good assignments for the level of the class. Good grammar, good ideas, thoughtfully written etc. The class wasn’t particularly hard, and it was a first year class so it was more about giving students the confidence to move forward, and while I wrote some comments about improvement here and there, I didn’t ink the entire page red. That scares them. And it’s unnecessary inking for such a small assignment.Same student asked me to proof her personal essay for an application. Now, I knew this application was extremely important, and also part of a very difficult admissions process to which I knew the major folks who would be making the decisions. She asked my help, I want her to succeed, I know how to get her to succeed because by now I know the ins and outs of the admission committee. What do I do? I ink the entire essay top to bottom in red, everything I could possibly think of that could improve. 

She didn’t take that well at all, and probably expected a review that had been more or less what I’d given on the class assignments (but, to me, a 15 minute 1 page weekly assignment is not on the same scale as a 5+ hour 2 page admissions essay). Didn’t bother fixing what I suggested she fix, and what do you know she doesn’t get admitted, and she sends me back an email saying she doesn’t know how she possibly couldn’t have been admitted when she had straight As and good rec letters. Seeing people fail when they could have succeeded, especially when they didn’t do everything I feel they could have done to elevate their chances of success… and they still complain about their situation after the fact 

And that’s why I’m an ass. I had a friend describe me saying that I have a problem with putting myself and others on a “pedestal of perfection.” I’m chill on a lot of things, but that’s only because I don’t find a lot of things important to me. If I look like I’m chill about something, that’s probably why - I just can’t be bothered to try my very best bc it’s not very high on my own scale of importance (also p chill towards others’ shenanigans unless i have a personal stake in whatever it is they’re doin’). In line with that, I’m good at admitting and accepting losses. I tend to make a hierarchy of things that are important, and I’ll let go of the ones on the bottom of my list even if there’s an initial sting to do so. I’ll get over it. 

I’m all about efficiency. Expending the least effort for maximum payout.

The few things that are important, I have zero chill (group projects I have zero chill), and will unintentionally drag people down to my own personal hell of zero-chill when that was never what they wanted. My hyperfocus is real and you can sometimes see it when I post 5 chapter updates in the span of 5 days >_>;;;

ahahaaaa sorry this got out of control anon. When you say characters aside from Vaati, were you thinking of OCs or other characters I’ve written in stories, or my opinion on canon characters in general?

[dreamlogic]

hey! i know you're into some witchy stuff and i was wondering if you had some advice for someone just starting out. I love the thought of nature-based stuff, and I also just got a couple of gemstones and i'm not really sure where to go with them haha

oh man haaahaha i’m rly not that witchy compared to some other tumblr witches i know, but i’m flattered you thought of me?? tbh i’m super casual with my witchcraft. i don’t practice a specific type, it’s just sort of a weird syncretism of various religious/folk/personal influences. you can be super casual with it, or you could put a lot more time and energy into becoming a devotee of a specific set of practices. my thoughts are super scattered rn so i’m gonna try to organize this into a list, and anyone’s welcome to chip in if they want to:

do your research. i just sort of stumbled into my peculiar brand of witchcraft based on the scandinavian and celtic/anglo-saxon folktales i grew up on, but there’s a whole world of possibilities out there and you’re bound to find something that resonates with you! i’d check out some library books on witchcraft, symbolism, and folklore, as well as maybe some field guides for local flora/fauna to start? the more you know about magical history and such, the more possibilities are open to you. it’s been helpful to me having a background in folklore, and looking at witchcraft from an anthropological perspective might be helpful as well? also, be aware not to engage in practices belonging to closed religions, and be sensitive to cultural appropriation. also, be respectful of people and the environment!!! certain plants are becoming endangered due to high demand (white sage and frankincense come to mind), and the gemstone industry is notorious for unethical practices and disregard for environmental impact (diamonds being the most notable). it isn’t hard to find more responsible and ethical alternatives.

be resourceful! it’s very witchy to scavenge for materials and engage with your surroundings. you can spend an arm and a leg on Fancy Witchy Shit, but imo some of the most powerful magic is forged with overgrown weeds, rusted railroad ties, and a lot of faith. it’s all about intentionality. there’s magic everywhere and you don’t need $30 spell candles or an elaborate altar to connect with it.

communication is v important!! i kinda see witchcraft as a language that allows you to connect with the supernatural, and also the natural world. it’s all about building relationships. get good at recognizing patterns-- in the weather, in yourself, in the spiritual. listen to your surroundings and try to learn to understand the way things seen and unseen behave. make friends with your local faeries (maintaining a garden and leaving out little food offerings like a bowl of milk or some fresh fruit are good), pay attention to what bugs, birds, and other small creatures are doing, and spend time connecting with the divine, whatever that means to you (prayer, meditation, long walks in the woods, etc).

your intuition is your best friend. if something resonates with you, focus on it, try and figure out why you sense a connection with it. if something sets off red flags or makes you uncomfortable, stop doing it. witchcraft draws energy to you, which can be a beautiful thing, but it also makes more malicious entities curious about why you’re poking around in the supernatural. before digging too deeply into communicating with any beings, make sure you set up wards around yourself and your space, and be careful what sorts of energies you’re letting in. cultivate good things!! follow your instincts and see where they take you!! (but make sure you keep yourself grounded somehow so you don’t get lost.)

a lot of magic and witchery is just cause and effect elevated to a craft. brewing herbs is encouraging the effects of those herbs in your body. casting a spell for protection with warding stones and incense is utilizing the properties of those things to cause a reaction, that reaction being the creation of a safety net. burying iron under your doors and windows to scare away ghosts and malicious faeries is utilizing the fact that certain metals repel supernatural beings. it can be as simple as carrying one of your gemstones in your pocket to make you feel good, or as complex as casting runes/tarot to read fortunes. as mundane as planting specific flowers to help out wild bees, or as fantastical as astral traveling to find yourself a familiar.

witchcraft, like any spiritual practice, is super personal. it is what you make of it, and there’s no right or wrong way to practice. it’s helpful to follow others’ guidance and read up on established lore to start out with, but that stuff is ultimately subjective. there’s no hard rule on How To Witch, and although symbols and energy tend to follow certain trends, the universe is a vast and mysterious place that ultimately doesn’t give a fuck about our futile attempts to organize it into something that makes sense.

[tbhstudying1]

hellO it's glossier anon again and thanks so much for the tips <3 i'm also looking to get some products from other skincare/makeup brands so!! what are your favorite brands + products? thanks so much <333

y’all im DESPONDENT bc i spent AGES writing a good reply and then MY LAPTOP SHUT DOWN BC OF BATTERY AND THE ASK DIDN’T SAVE :(((( anyhow, here is my very long response under the cut! 

im listing everything that i’ve used / have bc some of the things that didn’t work for me might work for you! do keep in mind that i’m still relatively new to skincare / beauty ;; hope this helps anyways!

if y’all have any beauty / skincare recommendations for me, send me an ask with the name of the product! i get rly excited abt this kind of stuff haha

skincare

my main skin problems: dryness, redness, uneven texture my skin type: dry, ultra sensitive

the ordinary niacinamide serum

got this for redness, broke me out instead

okay, idk if this was the product that broke me out bc i did experience a lot of heat rash during that time and i didn’t patch test BUT im too scared to test this :(

side note: i develop rashes and redness when i’m exposed to too much heat or sun :(((((( 

would not buy again

the ordinary hyaluronic acid serum

i rly haven’t noticed anything or any changes but hey ? at least it doesn’t break me out ?

i’ve noticed that it’s really sticky when it dries down which i do not like……

would not buy again

holika holika aloe vera gel

i bought this bc 1. my aloe vera plant was running out of leaves and 2. i read a post that said the nature republic gel had alcohol in it. also, the packaging is cuter HAHAHA

i primarily use aloe vera gel to soothe the redness and heat rash and sunburn i get :( i also use to help heal acne scars.

i found that fresh aloe vera gel works better but this is good in a pinch

would buy again

thayer’s witch hazel rose water toner

it smells rly rly rly good !!!! also it’s quite affordable considering how much product you get in a single bottle. it’s lasted me so so long and a friend told me zendaya uses it too hahaha

i haven’t noticed any real change ? i think folks with oily skin might rly benefit from this too but hey !! it didn’t break my skin out

would buy again but i wanna experiment with more toners

cetaphil facial cleanser and lotion

my HOLY GRAIL of ALL skincare bc it’s gentle and doesn’t break me out and keeps my skin soft and GOD i would DIE for cetaphil 

i’ve been religiously using cetaphil after i had this horrible skin experience as a child. my doctor was like “hey you should use cetaphil” and ever since then, my skin has been calmer

definitely !!! would buy !!! again!!!!!!

cosrx good morning gel cleanser

god im so despondent whenever i think about this one

everyone !! loves this !!! but !!! it left my skin feeling stripped and kinda broke me out. i think it’s the tea tree oil that i’m sensitive to? but god i just wanted to love this so much more than i actually did…….

would not buy again

cosrx acne patches

cosrx redeems itself in my eyes with THESE MAGIC PATCHES

slap one on your pimple when it comes to a head and it’ll draw all the gunk out

notes: make sure to keep it on for as long as possible, pimples may take more than one patch to get everything out, and don’t apply when your skin is still wet / damp or else it won’t stick as well

would buy again

naive peach facial cleanser

im a weak bitch for anything peach scented. everyone who knows me can confirm.

unfortunately, this cleanser left my skin feeling stripped. it didn’t break me out though. folks with oily skin might like this better ?? it smells SO SO GOOD THOUGH

would not buy again

innisfree peach hand lotion

it !!!!! smells so good!! and like i said!!!! im a weak ass bitch for peach-scented things!!!! leaves my hands feeling so soft!!!

would buy again

beauty

im a n00b at beauty makeup stuff HAHAHHA also the reason why i have so much colourpop stuff is purely bc i only buy during sales and i get literally everything for at least half the price + free shipping DSJKJDSKJK

colourpop double entendre eyeshadow palette

affordable esp since i got it during a sale + free shipping

note: if you wanna buy anything from colourpop, wait until there’s a sale

good mix of mattes and shimmers, good shades for natural makeup

i don’t rly know how to use or apply makeup so im too much of a Coward to buy eyeshadows with bright shades and whatever. this was a rly nice palette to buy + i can do looks that im more comfy with :”) i lov me some good browns and coppers :”)

colourpop blotted lippies (bee’s knees, on a stick, candyfloss)

like all colourpop lipstick products, do not use if your lips are chapped. every flake of dry skin will show :(

bee’s knees is my fav

i prefer more natural and vibrant pink/red shades

on a stick is too coral, candyfloss is too nude

colourpop ultra blotted lip (zuma)

too matte and nude for my tastes, but it applied very nicely and didn’t budge when it dried down

dw dw it takes some time to dry so you can fix mistakes if necessary

i think it looks good on my lips after blotting once tho

colourpop super shock shadows

god i wanted to like these and i impulsively bought a whole bunch of shimmery ones but i hate all of them

i prefer applying eyeshadow with brushes and it’s harder to do that with these. also, the ones i bought are way too shimmery for me

i have too many and i’ve literally only used them once for tests on my wrist. idk what to do with these anymore.

at least i got these for less than half the price and with free shipping during a sale

colourpop super shock highlighter (wisp)

this highlighter!!! i love it!!! it matches well with my skin tone and i bought it after amy vagabond recommended it for asian skin tones. it’s not super obvious and extra bright, but you can definitely build it up to that blindingly bright highlight if you want to. i use it mostly as a natural-looking highlight

physician’s formula liquid eyeliner

i recently got this from the drugstore bc i wanted a dupe for kat von d tattoo liner + i heard that this was a pretty close one. i like it but i haven’t used it enough to give you a solid opinion on it

maybelline volumizing mascara

god there are so many different versions of these…. i just picked the dark blue non-waterproof one and went with it bc they all sound the same DJSKSDJK

fyi: i hate waterproof mascaras bc they take forever to remove and i suck at removing mascara and it drives me nuts!!

but hell yeah they give you VOLUME

they do have fallout :(((( i have to check in the mirror every couple of hours to swipe away flakes of dried mascara but THE VOLUME !!

laura mercier translucent setting powder

listen, this stuff is $$$ compared to everything else on this list, but i borrow it from my mum HAHAHA

it rly is a nice powder though! no flashback, no weird white cast, and blends in seamlessly with my bb cream / foundation

maybelline bb cream (the one with pink letters in medium)

eh, it’s just bb cream

i’ve got no solid opinion on it since i use the glossier one more frequently. it’s thicker and more coverage, but the glossier one is easier to spread over the face purely bc of its thinner consistency. im a lazy girl who wakes up late so any makeup (if any) has to be quick and on the go

i’ll probably use this one more once i run out of the glossier one

l’oreal bb cream (medium)

god i hate this so much

it’s supposed to have little balls of pigment that pop and add color to the cream but it just turns out to be inconsistent and weird. 

things that are coming soon / in the process of testing

benton snail bee essence

laneige water sleeping mask

hada-labo goku-jyun hyaluronic lotion

banila co clean it zero cleansing balm

skinfood sheet mask

things that i want

canmake mermaid spf gel

fenty beauty lip gloss

moonshot cushion

too faced palette (not bc of the colors, just bc of the peach scent)

son & park beauty water

etude house sunprise sun milk

peripera lip tint

3ce foundation

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hellO it's glossier anon again and thanks so much for the tips

y’all im DESPONDENT bc i spent AGES writing a good reply and then MY LAPTOP SHUT DOWN BC OF BATTERY AND THE ASK DIDN’T SAVE :(((( anyhow, here is my very long response under the cut! 

im listing everything that i’ve used / have bc some of the things that didn’t work for me might work for you! do keep in mind that i’m still relatively new to skincare / beauty ;; hope this helps anyways!

if y’all have any beauty / skincare recommendations for me, send me an ask with the name of the product! i get rly excited abt this kind of stuff haha

skincare

my main skin problems: dryness, redness, uneven texturemy skin type: dry, ultra sensitive

the ordinary niacinamide serum

got this for redness, broke me out instead

okay, idk if this was the product that broke me out bc i did experience a lot of heat rash during that time and i didn’t patch test BUT im too scared to test this :(

side note: i develop rashes and redness when i’m exposed to too much heat or sun :(((((( 

would not buy again

the ordinary hyaluronic acid serum

i rly haven’t noticed anything or any changes but hey ? at least it doesn’t break me out ?

i’ve noticed that it’s really sticky when it dries down which i do not like......

would not buy again

holika holika aloe vera gel

i bought this bc 1. my aloe vera plant was running out of leaves and 2. i read a post that said the nature republic gel had alcohol in it. also, the packaging is cuter HAHAHA

i primarily use aloe vera gel to soothe the redness and heat rash and sunburn i get :( i also use to help heal acne scars.

i found that fresh aloe vera gel works better but this is good in a pinch

would buy again

thayer’s witch hazel rose water toner

it smells rly rly rly good !!!! also it’s quite affordable considering how much product you get in a single bottle. it’s lasted me so so long and a friend told me zendaya uses it too hahaha

i haven’t noticed any real change ? i think folks with oily skin might rly benefit from this too but hey !! it didn’t break my skin out

would buy again but i wanna experiment with more toners

cetaphil facial cleanser and lotion

my HOLY GRAIL of ALL skincare bc it’s gentle and doesn’t break me out and keeps my skin soft and GOD i would DIE for cetaphil 

i’ve been religiously using cetaphil after i had this horrible skin experience as a child. my doctor was like “hey you should use cetaphil” and ever since then, my skin has been calmer

definitely !!! would buy !!! again!!!!!!

cosrx good morning gel cleanser

god im so despondent whenever i think about this one

everyone !! loves this !!! but !!! it left my skin feeling stripped and kinda broke me out. i think it’s the tea tree oil that i’m sensitive to? but god i just wanted to love this so much more than i actually did.......

would not buy again

cosrx acne patches

cosrx redeems itself in my eyes with THESE MAGIC PATCHES

slap one on your pimple when it comes to a head and it’ll draw all the gunk out

notes: make sure to keep it on for as long as possible, pimples may take more than one patch to get everything out, and don’t apply when your skin is still wet / damp or else it won’t stick as well

would buy again

naive peach facial cleanser

im a weak bitch for anything peach scented. everyone who knows me can confirm.

unfortunately, this cleanser left my skin feeling stripped. it didn’t break me out though. folks with oily skin might like this better ?? it smells SO SO GOOD THOUGH

would not buy again

innisfree peach hand lotion

it !!!!! smells so good!! and like i said!!!! im a weak ass bitch for peach-scented things!!!! leaves my hands feeling so soft!!!

would buy again

beauty

im a n00b at beauty makeup stuff HAHAHHA also the reason why i have so much colourpop stuff is purely bc i only buy during sales and i get literally everything for at least half the price + free shipping DSJKJDSKJK

colourpop double entendre eyeshadow palette

affordable esp since i got it during a sale + free shipping

note: if you wanna buy anything from colourpop, wait until there’s a sale

good mix of mattes and shimmers, good shades for natural makeup

i don’t rly know how to use or apply makeup so im too much of a Coward to buy eyeshadows with bright shades and whatever. this was a rly nice palette to buy + i can do looks that im more comfy with :”) i lov me some good browns and coppers :”)

colourpop blotted lippies (bee’s knees, on a stick, candyfloss)

like all colourpop lipstick products, do not use if your lips are chapped. every flake of dry skin will show :(

bee’s knees is my fav

i prefer more natural and vibrant pink/red shades

on a stick is too coral, candyfloss is too nude

colourpop ultra blotted lip (zuma)

too matte and nude for my tastes, but it applied very nicely and didn’t budge when it dried down

dw dw it takes some time to dry so you can fix mistakes if necessary

i think it looks good on my lips after blotting once tho

colourpop super shock shadows

god i wanted to like these and i impulsively bought a whole bunch of shimmery ones but i hate all of them

i prefer applying eyeshadow with brushes and it’s harder to do that with these. also, the ones i bought are way too shimmery for me

i have too many and i’ve literally only used them once for tests on my wrist. idk what to do with these anymore.

at least i got these for less than half the price and with free shipping during a sale

colourpop super shock highlighter (wisp)

this highlighter!!! i love it!!! it matches well with my skin tone and i bought it after amy vagabond recommended it for asian skin tones. it’s not super obvious and extra bright, but you can definitely build it up to that blindingly bright highlight if you want to. i use it mostly as a natural-looking highlight

physician’s formula liquid eyeliner

i recently got this from the drugstore bc i wanted a dupe for kat von d tattoo liner + i heard that this was a pretty close one. i like it but i haven’t used it enough to give you a solid opinion on it

maybelline volumizing mascara

god there are so many different versions of these.... i just picked the dark blue non-waterproof one and went with it bc they all sound the same DJSKSDJK

fyi: i hate waterproof mascaras bc they take forever to remove and i suck at removing mascara and it drives me nuts!!

but hell yeah they give you VOLUME

they do have fallout :(((( i have to check in the mirror every couple of hours to swipe away flakes of dried mascara but THE VOLUME !!

laura mercier translucent setting powder

listen, this stuff is $$$ compared to everything else on this list, but i borrow it from my mum HAHAHA

it rly is a nice powder though! no flashback, no weird white cast, and blends in seamlessly with my bb cream / foundation

maybelline bb cream (the one with pink letters in medium)

eh, it’s just bb cream

i’ve got no solid opinion on it since i use the glossier one more frequently. it’s thicker and more coverage, but the glossier one is easier to spread over the face purely bc of its thinner consistency. im a lazy girl who wakes up late so any makeup (if any) has to be quick and on the go

i’ll probably use this one more once i run out of the glossier one

l’oreal bb cream (medium)

god i hate this so much

it’s supposed to have little balls of pigment that pop and add color to the cream but it just turns out to be inconsistent and weird. 

things that are coming soon / in the process of testing

benton snail bee essence

laneige water sleeping mask

hada-labo goku-jyun hyaluronic lotion

banila co clean it zero cleansing balm

skinfood sheet mask

things that i want

canmake mermaid spf gel

fenty beauty lip gloss

moonshot cushion

too faced palette (not bc of the colors, just bc of the peach scent)

son & park beauty water

etude house sunprise sun milk

peripera lip tint

3ce foundation